Look at the stars.Look how they shine for you.

Often times, we place our time and effort on things that matter the most. What really matters? Should i be resting or studying since i’ve been sick? Either ways i’m on tumblr blogging this. There are so many times i find myself saying that balance is the key to life. Yet the truth is, do we balance out? Or do spend more time on things that matter? Do we recognise that the things that ”aren’t as important” does not mean that they aren’t important at all? 

Was just dwelling on this.. On a small scale, these things, such as some alone time and family time… It may not seem so important.. it may be routinely done… Yet sometimes we wish we could forsake them so we can study for the upcoming exams… to work… I must admit, there are times when i’m too tired to pray. I mumble or speak in tongues in bed, and then forget if i even end it and fall asleep. Whatever little thing we do, helps us keep that balance. Not doing them may not seem to matter now, but in a long run, we find ourself lacking in some area. Work too hard and you lack sleep. Spend too much time out and you lose out on spending time with the family.

Wish i could literally weigh my life on a scale, just to find that perfect balance. 

Over brekkie, we talked about how i want to get another Apple for my 21st birthday. As much as the stocks drop and android is catching up, i truly believe that other brands can overtake Apple in their technology but nothing’s going to look sexier than an Apple. 

Why i refer this as an Apple instead of the actual product? Cause my head’s conflicted:/ Macbook pro with Retina Display? Or iPad mini with 3G. The truth is, do i really need these? It would,of course, be fantastic to have new features. The love for singing thinks it’ll be cool to meddle with garage band or do some video editing on a mac book pro. Yet the iPad mini.. to watch videos on the go… Wherever I am… Or to read an ebook. This all seems so tempting.

Either ways, I’ve got to wait. Wait for the new one to come out. Do i really have to wait?:/   

One of those days. When you feel like you just want this and you want it now. Man, Clare. Wait luhhh:/

Sometimes I feel like I get forgotten… Like the feeling I got when mummy forgot to fetch me from school and I waited close to 4 hours just to find out she went shopping with auntie and grandma.

Can’t figure which is scarier… For my name to be forgotten? Or that I was completely not part of the equation in the first place… Like the father I have that I haven’t seen for the longest time… Looking back at how he called my sis and I “Issa” sometimes.. And I spend most of the time wondering who he’s actually calling…

It’s nice to know that when I drench the pillow with tears at night, God’s just so ready to catch every single one of them. Someone who never forgets me :’). Don’t wanna ever forget that… God’s love never fails…

I’ve ever thought about being totally easy on myself. Learn to do some website design, improvise on my make up skills, lose a lot of weight and be a wedding events planner or make up artist, doing some lifestyle blogging on the side. but I’ve never been able to figure out how some of those bloggers can take such pretty photos by themselves. Practice makes perfect much? How many times do they even have to smile to get that perfect angle? Gee.

Yes, this is one of those days i dream of being a total ”ad tai” (not ”tai tai”). Yes. I totally came up with that on my own cause i don’t know what’s the exact term for them. People who blog and survive on advertorials. Not necessarily with a husband. Totally self-dependent for some actually. Not judging kay. Just totally amused by it in some way. 

Ok drifting from a main point. Any blog tagged Bimbo Barbie is a wishlist I’d like to have or do. Why bimbo. Cause these things are materialistic wants( I’m being so honest :D) and not necessarily needs ( rather debatable). See, Clare is very forgetful. So she needs to write down what she wants. Why not on paper? What if I misplace the paper..? :| Hehehehe…

WANTS:

iPod Shuffle Pink - Engraved : Slow to speak, quick to listen

Portable Charger

Kate Spade wallet

Lose Weight- 15KG: I’m on it. 11 to go! This could very well be a need. Hahaha.

God makes you comfortable at a place. He does. For about 15 mins. Then just as you start getting complacent He decides He can add more unto your plate. Sometimes I think in my head. Wow. Daddy sure has a lot of faith. Cause right now, at this very moment. I’m having those ” I can’t do this.. I can’t do this..” thoughts.

I can’t do this. Not alone. It can only be done through You.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xf5WrDnmH7U

Today during lesson my lecturer mentioned about how Mother Theresa was one woman who believed in changing lives one at a time. Those who changed will continue that legacy and spark a revolution as long as they believe. Was watching this and when they talked about the homeless man in this video I was reminded of it once again..

As long as we have faith.. we can move the mountains, one at a time.. baby steps… Every step we take is about to spark a new revolution… Don’t think about how impossible it is to cause a big fire of revival.. God can fan that spark into flames… 

Who are the ones that really need the help? Perhaps it all begins with my cry to God. That it is only when I am helped, that I can help others. But never to make me lose sight of reaching out to those who want to be reached out to.

How important is it to see a cell group grow in numbers as compared to having a cg of compassionate people who empathize and are courteous to the old lady that needs our seat more than we do? Quality over quantity.

So many thoughts running through my mind now. God, help me be some one who has a heart for others.. Help me to help them grow… Help me to always see the good in everything. Help me to focus and never give up in anything I set my hands on.